Dear Ryder.
i apologizing for writing this too late.
On April 22nd, 2011, you were born!
the night before, my water broke. i was getting ready for bed and you decided you wanted to come out and join me.
i packed up the rest of our stuff and drove myself to the hospital.
we were admitted of course, and i wasn't going to go home without my little baby!
the contractions hurt mommy, so i got the most wonderful thing, to feel it less.
at around 4:30 PM, the next day they told mommy that you were going to come out of my belly, FROM my belly.
they prepped me for surgery.
i was put to sleep, so i wasn't able to meet you until two hours later, but the doctors took really good care of you while mommy was cleaned up.
you were screamin your lil lungs out until the moment mommy held you. you opened your eyes and looked at me and all was right in the world.
we spent the next two days getting to know one another and bond and snuggle and recover.
ha, and i thought i loved you then!
in a little over a week, baby, you will be turning three months old.
your first few weeks were rough.
you didn't like the formula you were on so you screamed all the time, and mommy wasn't sure why. we switched you to something new, and you calmed down a lot.
you breast fed for a week, but then you got lazy and didn't want to work for your food anymore.
you began smiling in your sleep and i always wondered what you were dreaming about.
you've never seen your crib because you always slept in bed with mommy!
you loved your glow seahorse SO much, that within two months, the batteries needed replacing.
you have grown so much little man.
you now stay awake most of the day and sleep most of the night.
you are absolutely FASCINATED with your hands and are content just playing with them, or chewing on super bear.
you know who daddy is, you'll stare at his pictures, and wake right up when he calls because you hear his voice. he can't wait to meet you!
you wiggle and squirm and you have rolled over once already!
you have FINALLY gotten into size one diapers, becaue you have such a teeny butt.
and you're long.
your smile, it's the best smile in the world. it melts my heart.
i love hearing your giggling or talking, you're such a happy baby, aside from the temper tantrums. and i just love looking at you, i love holding you. i love everything about you.
and i wouldn't have you any other way!
